didn't know

just a few things i've been needing to get off my chest for a while now..

i had a chance with you, it would've worked out better than your friend and i had. some people are just so impatient, i hate to say i'm one of them. i don't wait; in fact, i hate waiting. now, i regret not waiting. i knew that you were interested, i just didn't care. you were so nice to me, so sweet. i'm stupid, i should've WAITED. i was completely oblivious to the fact that you would've treated me way better. your friend was a jerk to me, you told me yourself to not "move so fast," and warned me about him.

so after an ex of mine broke up with me, my life as i knew it had completely annihilated, into little pieces that i couldn't pick up. i was distraught, lost, astrayed; i couldn't seem to find myself. i went to you first. even though, our friendship started off a bit weird, we grew from that. we grew to see each other has just friends. in the process of getting to know you, laughing at your jokes that don't make sense, listening to your wise advice, learning your fears and insecurities, somewhere in the middle, i fell in love with you.

it's funny how life works out.

xoxo, josie