this probably doesn't make sensee

heyyy!
i haven't blogged in the longest time, sorry guys! well, sorry to those who actually take the time to read this ish' haha.

so i started school about a month ago, senior year's been fun ;] i'm kinda pissedd, it's been a month into school and i still haven't hooked up with anyone yet -_- but it's okay, haha. anyways, when school first started, i was depressed all the time. it was because this year, i chose to take a zero period (its called first period at chs -__-) and so i leave at lunch. and i felt that since i leave so early, i was drifting away from friends. i admit, i was so anti social the first few weeks of school; i went home right at lunch, and i never talked to my friends, not unless i had to. but now, i'm talking to more people.

but honestly.. i think the reason why i'm starting to socialize more is because i'm having so many problems at home. my dad's been more irritable lately, so everything my brothers and i do, he gets mad at. and the stupid thing is that he waits until my mom get home and he rants on about how horrible we are. which isn't fair to my mom; she works almost 12 hours a day, and the last thing she needs is my dad bitching and complaining. also, my mom's really upset that i want to attend san francisco state next fall. but she doesn't understand that it really is my dream school, and i will do just about anything to go there. but sometimes i don't know if i really wanna go there. just because i'm going to be away from all my friends and i feel as if i'm gonna miss out on so much. like last saturday, i was at the trung thu festival at pomona and i saw soo many people, and i kept thinking about how i would miss out on this next year.

so lately i've also been super tired! i went to the doctor's yesterday to talk about my lab results with my doctor (who's name i can' t pronounce haha) and it turns out my hormone levels are all messed up, because i haven't been taking my thyroid medication regularly lately. so it messed up my sleeping pattern and supposedly it messed up my period too, but my period's been regular since june so idk what he's talking about. haha. so he increased my dosage so i'm supposed to be all bettttter by december (:

oh, and i'm not going to homecoming this year. not at chs at least! i'm either going to montclair's or pomona's. i'd rather go to pomona's, since their's is at coco palm! but i think i'm going to montclair's, because tiff's going (: i can't wait to go dress shopping!

and the part you guys have allllll beeeen waiting forr.. BOYS! haha. well as you guys read up there, i haven't hooked up with anyone yet -__- but it's okay. anywayss, another reason why i was so depressed when school first started was that a couple of weeks into school, a guy that i was starting to like again kinda just erased me from my life. he texted me saying that he wanted nothing to do with me anymore, because he got back with his ex girlfriend (and i hear now that they are broken up yet again). and it honestly hurt, i didn't think he meant that much to me. and on saturday, i saw him at trung thu. and i thought it would be awkward so i kept my dsitance from him. but then at the end of the night, somehow we bumped into each other and started talking. and i still have his number and some days i'll be tempted to text him, but i'm soooo afraid of rejection so i don't want to.. but it sucks not being in control.

but yeah that's it haha. i'll try to remember to blog moree.. k byye!