at brogan's

so brogan and melisa are in her room, waiting for her phone to charge.. then we're gonna go to melisa's and make mocha freezes :)

brogan and i were talking just now. we had this long, serious conversation about guys. how they're so sweet to you at first, and as soon as they know you're wrapped around the tip of your finger, they immediately drop the act. she talked about eddie and jairo; and i talked about.. yeah. i love how she covers up herself, how she acts so strong, like no one gets to her. but then when we really get talking, you know right away she's just a girl. who gets hurt over little things that the boys we like do. she went on a little about how much of an asshole eddie is. and i don't even know the nigga, but i've heard SO much about him in the past year, i'm about ready to kill the bitch. anyway.. then i went on a little about.. yeah. i kept bitching and moaning about how badly i wanna talk to him, even though i know that if i do i'm just going to cuss him out. but.. as feeble and pitiful as this sounds, i just want to hear his voice. see how desperate i've gotten? i mean really, i guess i've just got to stay strong and get through this, after all, i've been able to get through it before.

then we went on a little bit about boyfriends. how she's afraid of rejection; so am i. that's honestly my biggest fear in life, along with failure. and rejection doesn't limit at just boys. it can be with school, family, friends.. which is why brogan hasn't had a boyfriend. but honestly, she's gorgeous, and with that, she has a great personality. eddie was a fool not to choose her. instead, he chose some fat bitch, who's being played! anyway, she also added how she was surprised how quickly i got over tommy. haha, it's because i didn't give a fuck about him. yeahh..

anyway, i don't even know if i'm going to oakland this weekend. my mom said that she doesn't want me to go because i have school on monday and she thinks that i'm going to stay home because i'm tired or sick or something. and i'm like kjdhf;ldf;kadjladslfjasdf. i was so pissed. i wanna see anthony so bad, it's not even funny anymore. i haven't seen him since february! i miss the shit out of that fucker.

anyway, were going back to melisa's now to make our freezes. haha :) i love my pomona friends.

brogan estelle mullen - "don't give in. because if you do, whatever you said, didn't mean anything."

xoxo, josie.

ps- "it better say something about how much you love me in that blog" - melisa. hahahaha

pps- I GOT MY PERMIT BITCHES! :D